Happy March! Looking outside my window, it looks nothing like Spring. But, here’s to hoping that days with better weather will come soon.
Two chocolates the kind lady at the Beebee COVID testing site gave me
This past weekend, I stayed on campus again, taking time for myself and for my friends. I got meals with people I’ve been wanting to get to know better, played Overcooked on Nintendo Switch with my hall-mates, watched the KSA Culture Show, and went to the Honors Concert to cheer on my friends. Someone gave me two chocolates while I was rushing between classes too. These little nuggets of happiness make my day.
I especially enjoyed going to the KSA Culture Show and the Honors Concert. There is so much talent and beauty in this college that I sometimes forget. My friend Fuyuto Shigihara played the Bach Chaconne in D minor – an incredibly difficult and arduous piece. It was inspiring to witness her play it again after hearing it last semester. I’m glad to be reminded that there is much more to going to college here than academics, though sometimes it feels like academics consume my life instead.
I’m not sure how to have a better relationship with productivity. This past Sunday, I had three hours set aside to finish two papers, but instead I didn’t even write half of one. Today, I was told that I didn’t need to go to work, giving me three more hours of my day to spend. I could’ve studied for my French quiz or math quiz, or I could’ve finished writing and revising those papers that I didn’t get to on Sunday. Instead, I took a two hour nap and ate some snacks alone in my room. I don’t know what’s wrong with me to suddenly just simply give up working. I know that if I don’t stay on top of things, I will immediately fall behind because of my course load. But I am also already so exhausted, I am not sure what to do with myself anymore.
I think a lot of advice that we give our friends – take breaks, take a nap, sleep in – are easier said than done. Sometimes I catch myself thinking that if my friend had three extra hours in her day like I do now, she would be so much more productive than me. I don’t think this is a healthy mentality at all, but I don’t know how else to motivate myself to do work. Well, I guess we will see how fast my mental health crashes and burns this semester. 😀
On an entirely separate note, my internship that has been remote for two months will be in person starting next week! I am so excited to meet the coworkers I’ve chatted with on Zoom and stressed over meeting first assignments with. My manager even showed me my name tag that she had prepared. Despite the commute behind a chore, I think it’ll be good for me to get out of Wellesley and have a change in scenery. I think it will be refreshing, and I’m happy to have this opportunity. 🙂